Growing, Breathing, and Pausing.
Sitting in my office, on my couch, on a cold and rainy day. Sipping my favorite tea from Urban Tea House, listening to Spotify’s “rainy day” playlist, and watching candles burn. Sounds like heaven, right? It kind of is.
I’ve been sitting here trying to figure out where to start my work day for the past 45 minutes. Sometimes, when the to-do list is miles long and I feel like I don’t even know what I’m doing anymore, I just have to pause. To sit. To breathe.
People always tell me how busy I am. When I run into old friends or family members, they say “You’re just so busy right now.” Or, “You have a lot going on, how are you holding up?” Or, “How do you do it all? Are you exhausted?” I never really understand this. I suppose I am busy, but isn’t everyone?
The past couple of months have been unlike anything else I’ve ever experienced. And there’s no doubt I will continue to say that every month for the next 12 months, maybe even more. I am being pushed, forced, and lead through a huge era of personal growth in every aspect. But you know what, it is the best thing EVER. I love it all - even on the days I think I don’t.
I made a lot of goals for 2019. These goals resulted in making big decisions for change. These changes have led to growth, and the growth has taught me to breathe.
Today, I will share a little bit of what’s been going on in my life. It may or may not make sense, but we will see.
While I don’t think I am ready to share everything just yet… I will give you two of my goals / examples below:
I made a goal to uncover some personal issues and internal struggles that I’ve been holding inside for a very long time. This goal resulted in me partaking in hypnotherapy and upping my regular therapy practice. The only way I can explain how this is affecting me is that It’s like I opened a casket that I never even knew existed. Once it opened, there was no ignoring it. So, I’ve been working through one thing at a time. Making more time for myself. Staying aware and in-tune, and allowing healing to take place. All I can say on this right now is that the lessons I keep ignoring are coming back over and over again - and now it’s time I listen.
I made a goal to open a restaurant in 2019, and as you know it is well underway! Most days it still doesn’t feel real, but I don’t know if it will until it’s open. This venture is full of ups and downs. It’s testing my patience, it’s forcing me to learn, it’s questioning my faith, and it’s pushing me to grow. Every day is a new adventure, one that I am so deeply enjoying. On the days I feel like giving up, or feel like Im fighting against a brick wall, I remember that nothing worth doing is ever easy. When I’m thrown curve balls, I remember that fighting against them or wasting energy on being upset isn’t worth my time. I have to pick up where I left off and find a solution. This is just the beginning of a magical story - and I am choosing to enjoy the process.
The point in sharing my own stories isn’t just to tell you about my personal journey, It’s shared with the hope of you being able to connect with it somehow and apply it to your own life.
The point is this -
We are all busy.
We all have goals.
We have to choose to change in order to meet those goals.
The change leads to growth.
Growth is hard, sometimes really hard.
We have to learn to breathe. To pause. To explore what we feel when we are being triggered by the growth.
We have the power to choose joy. To choose faith over fear, and to truly grow. It’s all up to you. So push through, because you deserve more.
If you are also on a journey of personal growth - I hope you face it sraight on. Everything in this life happens on purpose, and there are no accidents. Listen to what is being sent your way, choose to breathe, choose to pause, choose to grow.
Thanks for reading, friends. Love to you all.
xo,
Emma